Week 6 - 52 Weeks, A Blog Dedicated To Lionel Larry

Week 6 – May 5, 2015

It has been 6 weeks only, and it already feels like a lifetime! Even though my brain still cannot wrap its head around what happened – these past 6 weeks feel like a lifetime.

This week was very challenging.  It is hard to live your life, and “pretend” to feel normal and “ok” because you sort of have to in the “real” world.  I love writing this blog, because it forces me to sit down and focus.

The most profound part of this week was this past Sunday.  I attended an unveiling for one of my best friends fathers – who passed away almost a year ago; also to cancer.  The parallels were similar, and we have both been a huge part in each others journeys.  Going to the cemetery, almost a year after the funeral brought a lot of emotion and confusion for me.  A whole year had passed for them – the hole still felt so palpable and so real.  No matter what we do, the sun still rises and sets, and the time will pass.  I am not sure that time heals – but it passes.  I have already learned that the grief can morph into five different directions in one day.  I can only imagine what the 1 year mark will bring.  But no matter what I feel, think, do or say – the time will pass – and my Father, will not be here. These people who pass on, will never come back in the physical form we knew them in – but the world still turns.

“Your journey has molded you for your greater good and it was exactly what it needed to be. Don’t think that you have lost time. It took each and every situation you have encountered to bring you to the NOW. And NOW is right on time” – Asha Tyson

Til next week,

Jodi

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